Worf: I remember it made me sick to my stomach.
-"Star Trek: First Contact"
Losing streaks are the barometers for me. Show me a player on a winning streak and I won’t be able to rate him. Show me a player who is in a losing streak and I’ll be able to tell you if he can play.
-Jennifer Harman, in Card Player magazine
So Kelley asks me if I'm any good at poker.
Now that I look back on it, I'm not sure if I just lied to her for the first time. What I said was, well, if it's based on what they say, that you keep score in poker by the money you make, then yes, I'm pretty good at it.
Only catch is I'm in the middle of a 250+ BB free fall over the course of the last 11 days. For 3/6, that's more than $1,500.
It all happened when I made +$5,000 for the very first time. It's like that scene in The Big Lebowski where Jeff Bridges is having that dream where he's flying, and he starts to smile. Then all of a sudden, he plummets down to the earth violently, with a bowling ball in his hand that's weighing him down like an anchor.
The good news is that things seem like they are starting to normalize. I'm not just hemorrhaging money anymore, and am only suffering the occasional bad beat. I lost a $130 pot last night to a guy who thought that calling my 4-bet with his KJo was a good move against my AA. Of course, he flopped the nut straight vs. my set of aces.
The other good thing is that with a $5,000 bankroll, you can afford to give some of it back and still play with abandon. It will come back. It's just the first time I've dropped more than $1,000 online. Last month, it took me 24 days to make up the $800 I lost. But it still came back. Plus, maybe it was bound to happen. I've long since stopped playing poker with my own money. My bankroll completely has been built from months of bonus whoring and spearing fish in the eye.
And I'm a veteran of sorts at this. I've lost more than $1,000 before playing hold'em in Las Vegas, taking beats that no person should ever have to experience. When it happens, you just have to take a deep breath and hunker down for the next hand.
I think being on this current losing streak has allowed me to take a step back and not be so glued to the computer. I've been running more and out with friends. I have the raspberries to prove it -- on my elbow, hip and just below the knee. I was running to third base in kickball and decided at the last moment that a headfirst slide was a good idea.
It will be an interesting setting for heading to Las Vegas on Thursday. My online bankroll is separate from the cash that I play live games with, but any success in Sin City will really make me happy.