Random thoughts at 1:45 a.m.
I know why you're here, Neo. I know what you've been doing... why you hardly sleep, why you live alone, and why night after night, you sit by your computer. You're looking for him. I know because I was once looking for the same thing. And when he found me, he told me I wasn't really looking for him. I was looking for an answer. It's the question that drives us, Neo. It's the question that brought you here. You know the question, just as I did.
What is the Matrix?
The answer is out there, Neo, and it's looking for you, and it will find you if you want it to.
It's 2 a.m./The fear is gone/I'm sitting here waiting/The gun's still warm/Thinking my connection/Is tired of taking chances...
Slowly I'm crawling back up the hill. Pot after little pot. Completely took a guy's $17 buy-in after flopping the nut straight on a Full Tilt $1/2 table. I'm not embarrassed to play $1/2... OK, well it's a little embarrassing (but the table was fishy). Flopped the nut flush in 6-max $2/4 on the same site, betting out the monsters like Phil Laak always instructs Jennifer Tilly and still getting action.
Inexplicably, took a guy's buy-in on a NL $.50/1 6-max in Ultimate Bet. I had T7s for a pair of tens. He had Q4, for a pair of fours. I pot-bombed the entire way and he paid me off for $37 on the river. Not sure what that's about. Lost a bunch back when a shortstack raised me all-in when I had AK with a K on flop and he had K9 for two-pair. Couldn't tell if shortstack was running the 4-flush draw. Must learn to fold...
Saw the second half of a downloaded Tournament of Champions yesterday. Watching it made me wonder why the pros didn't like to raise in the sb when it was 3-handed and heads-up? I know we're only seeing part of the feed but still.
Was looking through my bookshelf for my old copy of The Art of War for a future post on bankroll. Why do so many people not have one? It's crazy to gamble without a chip army and when you're in the middle of it all, you should be going by the Powell Doctrine of Overwhelming Force. Taking a shot is what Custer did at Little Big Horn. I think there's an M and Q of bankroll, just as there is one in tournament play and what your M is affects how you'll play.
When I was in the auto shop, I got a call back from the editor in Portland. I don't know what my chances are, but I'll probably know sometime around or after the Hawaii trip. I think the interview went well. I was kind of taken by surprise by the call, in the middle of a stereo shop, so much of my answers were by rote. I'll make a good pr guy someday. If I get the job, I'm not looking forward to crossing the 6,000-foot Siskyiou Pass in mid-February along the Oregon/California border. And I will hit every poker room along the way. Tunica. Oklahoma. Las Vegas. Los Angeles. Trip may take two weeks.